NoNnoNoNnoonONonOnOnoNono..... after one session of rugby training.. my legs are half broken... cant reali walk fast(dont even talk abt running), cannot jump high..(nt bad lahz.. at least still can jump alot of times...) but i reali reali cannot bend down... its like i will suddenly lose control over my legs and then fall down like tt.. zZz... this is onli the first training session man... kaoZ.. see so many ppl tt i dont like there(my primary school friends) they suddenly like dont noe mi.. there are onli 2 causes for this...1. i hav grown a matured face..(ar... this is like abit crap??) 2. they are guility for the things tt they had done in primary school and dont dare to approach mi... nvm.. i will get them during my rugby training.. hehe^_^... but there is jus one problem... or i mean two problems.. first one... the guy told mi tt by the time the third training.. half the ppl i see on the first session will leave the team already.. (this means good and bad news for mi.. the good news is.. if i bite on and dont let go... i may end up as one of the member of the TP rugby team... the bad news is.. i am afraid i cant hold on...) but something tells mi the guy is abit scaring mi.. cause i see the captain of the group.. cant even do pushups properly...(maybe its all in the running... zZz.. their thighs are the size of my circumference of my head..kaoZ...) the second problem... i am unable to wear contacts... cause my eyes sensitive... i will blink the moment the lens enter my eyes.. then nw i cannot wear specs during training.. or it will end up as trash metal... zZz... then hw? take off during training.. and i cannot see clearly wad is going on.. hiaz.. this reali makes mi wan to choose other CCA sia.. sianZzzZ.. but until this reali gets on my nerves.. i will then select a next CCA.. something tells mi tt i shuld nt be giving up easily in my life... i hav to stick to the decisions tt i make... (i dont care.. even if freddie quit rugby.. i will still stick to it!!..as for bernard... i dont tink he even wans to join.. cause he see us join then he will see friends there.. but his brothers call him onli.. he fly away already..LOLX..) haha... i reali hope tt the weekend come faster... haha... we are going out together at last.. HAHAHA...hope mummy makes it.. HAHA... wah.. reali reali looking forward to relax and jus slack... jus one dae plz.. god.. fufill my wish.. hehe^_^ *fingers crossed* hoping to catch up wif them.. HAHA.. take care my friends.. back to my homework.. i guess the break was used to blog.. miss u all^_^
I'm Hugged On 6:47 AM

Haha.. i was absolutely beat up... haha... who ask mi.. watch anime everydae... HAHA... then slp v late at nite..then wake up half dead in the morning... LOLX.. met all my teachers for the week already.. quite balanced lahz.. my timetable, HAHA... late in the mondae, tuesdae and thursdae.. wednesdae and fridae go home early.. HAHA... i joining rugby.. hope i can get in the rugby team after the trials...(NT LIKE MAURICE.. FAILED HIS TENNIS TRIALS AND THEN BLAME TT THERE ARE TOO MANY PROS IN THE SCH.. LOLX... I TINK HIS GOING TO FAIL GOING INTO THE DEBATERS TEAM... HIS GOING TO CRAP TO MI AGAIN... I CAN VOUCH FOR IT!(SATISFIED?) "EAT POTATO GUY" BLEAHZZZZZ) Mi, bernard and freddie are going for it.. haha.. hiaz.. no other CCA tt interest mi..LOLX... so bernard and freddie decided to stick wif the cca tt i am going to join... actually there are 3 choices.. dragon boat, archery and rugby.. i was tinking.. dragon boat.. i muz dedicate alot of time to train and all... then year 3 i will be struggling to study and train... so i most probably wil fail somewhere and some subjects.. sianZzZ.. of course i dont wan tt...(my dad is working v hard to support my stay there.. i am sure i dont wan to disappoint him...) then option number 2.. archery... after buying the all the equipment, like the bow, and stuff... its going to cost mi a bomb.. wel.. it will nt serve the purpose also.. i was trying to save money also.. so the last option, rugby.. haha... i dont wan to go water polo lahz.. after so many years soaking in the water...NONO to life-saving... i am so sick of water.. HAHA... so land.. here i come. haha... but hope tt the corn on my leg can heal faster.. haha... then can run... F*** u.. i dont tink u are v good lor.. stupid asshole.. dont tink tt u are a cook, u big F... so wad if i like to eat... nbcb... i eat cannot mehz... nned u to care abt mi? f***ed up attitude asshole... hao lian everything... "i got big and strong arms"... wah kaoZ... plz lor... ur biceps big mehz? kaoZ.. i tink my triceps bigger than ur biceps.. u bloody loser.. everything also wan to volunteer.. so be it lahz... dont give the excuse tt my triceps big cause i keep eating... i tink i can even do things tt u cannot lor.. play basketball lor.. swimming or anything.. lay down the challenge man dude.. u are such a loser tt i dont tink u can beat mi in anything.. perharps.. jus perharps.. u may beat mi in one with sheer luck... so after proving this.. can u please stfu? get the F out of my sight man.. one dae.. i may jus kick ur sorry ass until u wish tt u were nv borned.... although violence is nt the way to solve this problem... but we all hav our own limits... other friends tt are nt like him.. i will like to bless u all.. my class rox!!!(except for the guy above) LOLX... take care my friends...
I'm Hugged On 9:26 AM

HAHAHA... sch finally started.. still trying to get used to it.. todae is the second dae... everything is alrite.. going fine.. getting along well wif my class... so far so good.. i noe everything tt the teacher teach.. haha.. at least my teeny weeny of hard work paid off... duing the holidaes..hehe.. although i play more than i study... hehe... so tiring.. nt used to sch life ba.. all of us all owls.. used to play DOTA until wee hours in the morning then go and slp.. then after tt wake up at 12pm or 1pm.. maurice the worst one... kaoZ... dead zombie.. wake up at 4pm.. lolx.. 3/4 of the dae... <--- completely waste of time... btw... MY CLASS ROX!!!!!!!!! especially todae's APEL lesson.. haha... so fun...i nv had so much fun and laughter in a lesson except P.E... maybe more fun then P.E(^_^).. cannot talk much already... nt much time to blog though.. lolx.. especially when all the test comes..kaoZ... i can forsee tt my head burst already... wondering hw jie sheng handles JC life.. wan to see the look on his stressed face during his "A" levels man... kaoZ.. later i go to his sch and find him.. ppl jus come and tell mi... " u go look around... find a guy wif completely white hair and a v stressed face studying... most probably at the library or a quiet spot"...LOLX... i can already forsee this in my head.. at least he learned hw to open up.. which is a good thing.. cause he "quite" anti social in secondary sch...:P haha.. todae while waiting for freddie i saw so many ppl tt i noe.. (hey... looks like i hav many friends afterall...) *takes a deep breath* i saw the malay guy when i worked at expo...(i call him explosive hair... eileen and huiting shuld noe whose tt...)i tink his in business course... then i saw 2 of my tuition friends.. one called chun chuan,from my pure physics and pure chem tuition class... the other one i forgot his name.. but his from my chinese tuition class.. wa... golden hair flying all over the place...(wess call him hong kong brother...).. then saw carmen(hope i spelt correctly...) from B.U.M.. she siao one.. see mi sitting there... then at first she tot she see wrong person.. then she look again.. then she keep laughing at mi.. LOLX... i forgot to ask for her contact again...(way xiong... stop saeing i like her.. u stupid gay..) i saw him also <------ almost everydae see him one lahz... same course wad... then i saw bernard and wess... saw joyce and her friend... dunno whos tt.. but from bedok green also...i saw wen hui, eugene, haikal and lennard... haha... *exhales*... but out of so many ppl.. i still nv see hui ting...(my dear gal... where are u???? buy book.. buy book.. run home without mi.. make mi so guilty cause i cannot make it for the breakfast todae morning...) such a busy scedule... i dont care.. saraphina finish her mid year we all muz go out.. haha.. i v long time nv walk around le.. watch madacasgar!!!!!!!!!! haha... hiaz.. stop here bah... all my friends are doing well.. i am so glad tt they are... except for one though.. i also dont noe whether i consider it as a friendship... but we had once a friendship.. almost a "kinship".. sad to noe tt u had changed so much... we are nt like b4 anymore... anyways.. i hope to change u... take carezZz everyone.. HAHA....
I'm Hugged On 6:47 AM

Omg... after 3 terrible daes.. i was so glad tt i survived it... so much abt talking big and trying to escape it... (to all bedok greenians and my friends... who escaped the orientation... watch out cause for the 2nd and 3rd dae... they marked attendance twice.. which means..u will be questioned where u went.. so to does without a valid reason... gd luck guys...) well... it totally sux!...i was wasting my time there... they do bo liao things which we are nt even interested in doing... then they all so enthu until all shout till no voice.. but i still nt interested... i reali pity them sia.. lolx... actually.. i was v fortunate to be in this class... kaoZ... i look at other class.. all attitude one sia... but there is jus one problem... to mi.. i dont see it as a problem.. but to the rest of the guys.. it seems to be a big problem... cause the class is 100% guys... tt means.... if u turn north, south, east, west... u will see guys...(dont worry.. i am straight...lolx) but lucky for us... there is a bunch of galz at the side of our class.. the business process class...haha... our teacher is great... as in the care person of our class... SHE ROX MAN!... although she seem like a nice women.. shes gulible and so on... but i tink she has a great temper... lolx.. dont wan to try tt... and i was made the social representative..lolx.. which means tt i am responsible for making outings for the class during the holidaes and during care group sessions... which means.. somehow or another.. we get to go out during "lesson" time..hehe... tt is jus so great... lolx... in my class.. we got all sorts of ppl.. lolx... all sorts of character.. maybe it jus adds spicy to the life.. lolx.. i hope tt we can get along wif each other.. all the craps and other stuff... u guys are great.. haha...i shall stop here.. hehe... some things are to be kept to myself.. kaoZ.. the orientation made mi so tired.. kaoZ.. almost got banged down by car... next time i reali muz be careful... i am nt going to jaywalk anymore...the car also stupid... dunno how to turn... btw... jennifer... happy birthdae to u.... sincerly hope tt u will study hard and take care of urself.. hope tt u remain happy forever... let ur troubles go and u will be more free.. sometimes troubles can jus be let go...i noe its nt easy.. but i will always be there for u when u need mi.. hehe... friends forever...
I'm Hugged On 6:48 AM

well.. todae was so called another "wonderful and perfectly" normal dae... haha... well... todae i hav attempted the silent treatment to everyone... tt means when ppl scold mi, i will choose to remain silent and sae nth... at first it worked... but my mother scolded mi and felt odd.. at first..then after tt, she began to enjoy it... repeating over and over again.. its ok... i kept it all inside of mi... nt to sae anything.. she can sae wadever she wans.. well.. even my friends vent their anger on mi... i dont mind u venting angers on mi... but plz dont ignore mi or said tt i ignored u... i cannot take tt.... they can sae all they like for all i care... my mum... seeing tt i did nt sae anything when she scolded mi, go and complain all the things to my dad...(she's starting to enjoy it...) she go and complain all the things i did lor... cause yesterdae i ate with bernard at 85 until 5 a.m then reach home.. my dad didnt noe anything abt it... until then when he go and walk wif my mum..then now when he suddenly step in the door.. he started scolding mi for using the com.. started throwing my things on the ground.. well... i still chose to remain silent and pray tt they will calm down... they hav no idea how much they are hurting mi... when i sae something, they will use it back against mi... i am always in the wrong... always the stupid one who does nt use the common sense... maybe i am starting to like this "silent treatment".. cause as long as i dont talk.. ppl cannot do anything to mi.. as long as i dont hav expressions on my face.. ppl cannot do anything to mi... well.. ppl can vent their anger on mi for all i care.. as long as they are happy and contented tt they do tt.. i am satisfied.. i sincerly praise the god tt nobody is injured or killed todae... as long as tt dont happens.. tt will be my defination of a perfectly normal dae.. well.. pray hard tt everyone has no problems at all already.. i am begining to look on the brighter side.. and finding out tt my life isnt worth so much at all.. but look at all my friends.. they all hav bright futures ahead of them.. so y nt sacrifice mi so tt they can pursue their goals.. i hav already thought it already... since i hav no goals, ambition or anything... y be a hinderance to the rest and then make them worry abt mi... my onli goal now is to see all my friends be successful and be happy in life.. and healthy always to my parents so tt they can live to a long age... other than tt.. i dont wish for anything much... jus let mi live my daes peacefully jus like every normal dae.. i am serious v v v contented....
I'm Hugged On 6:27 AM

Anger - (noun) The strong feeling that you have when something has happened or somebody has done something that you dont like. (verb) To cause somebody to become angry.
Angry - (adj) feeling or showing anger(at/about) something.
Taken from oxford wordpower dictionary... as it states clearly the explanation there these 2 commonly used english word(actually nt v commonly used lahz.. but cannot jus let mi bluff abit mehz?) well.. the purpose of it so tt i can explain these 2 words.. i guess u guys are v clear wad these 2 words mean rite?( if nt.. plz read? kaoZ.. make so much effort to put it there and u nv read... are u blind?) as it states "somebody has done something tt you dont like" well.. this is jus one fine dae where "somebody has done nth wrong and ppl dont like" (wad is this world coming to?) lolx... sit at the sofa and daze also my fault sia.. one come and scold mi for lazying at home...(since when nt going out was my fault?).. craps abt mi getting fatter and fatter...(ok.. the fat part is nt crap.. i am fat..(^_^)) ppl get headache i take the scolding... well? i am jus an instrument of anger.. vent ur anger on me so tt ur dae can be much better.... well... have anyone tot of my feelings before? u are a human, i am a human.. if life sux for u? if u got a bloody headache.. muz u scold mi? muz u shout at mi? muz u scream at the top of ur lungs when i am right beside u? do u noe tt u make mi wan to take the knife in the kitchen and place it right in ur head?( tt will most probably end ur headache).. humans hav feeling u noe.. its alrite for u guys to vent ur anger on mi... i dont mind.. then i see all sorts of pattern.. 1. vent anger at u and then ignore u... 2. find an excuse to vent the anger on u jus because something u said or u do(when u hav said nth wrong or done nth wrong)...3. jus do it(means.. no excuses.. no reasons.. jus vent anger on u).. 4. use authority...( so wad if u are my parents and are stressed up at work? does this mean i muz take ur stress and worries? wad rights do u hav) 5. my presense irritates u(OMG.. tt is one total crap).. even if i am actually an instrument without feelings... jus like a cylinder... and anger is hot water.... when u fill mi up... there will still be 2 causes... 1. too much water tt it overflows... 2. the hot water cracks the glass... well.. now lets change it back to a human being..1. overflow = too much... suddenly burst of adreline and anger.. starts scolding everyone for no reason( used to be like tt... but maybe controlled it.. cause i tink tt its reali unfair to my friends.. sry dudes...) 2. cracks = breakdown.... well.. maybe i am still too early to sae tt... its ok.. regardless of wad happens.. i will remain in silence.. anyway... who noes wad will happen to mi? lolx... see mi in the newspaper headlines? nahZ.. nt so stupid to do tt.. telling friends will give them more troubles and worries... so y do tt? keep it to myself.. take control.. anyway.. my friends already hav their own problems.. maybe if i could jus take all the punishment and after tt everyone around mi will be happy.. i will eventually be happy too... lolx.. but i am imperfect after all.. (whos nt..mr or miss perfect please fill free to call my phone and leave a message at the tagboard.. i will reali wan to meet u..) i jus need time to adjust.. lolx.. mummy... dont be sad anymore.. we shuld aways look on the bright side of life like we always do... u sae tt u are sad when u see mi in this state... then i am sure i will also be sad to see u in this state.. so cheer up... as for my daughter.. i am sure tt u are v busy and work is taking a toll on u.. so learn to relax... haha... i noe life sux.. but we stil got a long way to go... let nature take its course.... haha... take care the both of u... as for miss saraphina.. plz put in good effort for ur exams.. we will be waiting for u to celebrate together cause i reali need one( or actually WE need one), nt giving u stress but giving u support.. jia you wor... haha... lastly.. i reali reali hope u can take care of urself... i hope he take care of u well too.. if nt.. i will be after him.. he shall pay a drop of blood for every drop of ur tears(lolx.. i sound like i am some kind of psycho killer.. kaoZ.. i am nt tt cruel lor) but i am seriously going to pay if he makes u cry again...
I'm Hugged On 8:25 AM

Haha... now the time is 3.58a.m(15-5-2005).. suffering from a sleepless nite again.. lolx.. well.. i dont reali hav much time to enjoe though..(although i haven been enjoying myself much) but i tink tt this holidae.. too many things happened in a v v short period of time... too many problems can actually drive u crazy.. this holidae has let me to learn to be more optimistic.. things are nt always in ur way... sometimes.. obstacles are there so tt it can make u stronger dae by dae.. thx mummy for being there when i needed u.. i tink i can solve my problems myself.. dont worry too much abt mi.. i am eating well and living well.. u muz take care of urself and stay happy.. u dont look too bright also.. muz be having alot of troubles deep inside of u.. i can reali sense it.. well.. if u read this, feel free to call mi anytime... my phone has been temporary revived... Muahahaha... thx alot of ppl... including vone and so on... thx for being there when i needed u all... i sincerly hope tt u will be happy too... hiaz..sae until like i going to die like tt.. lolx.. for those who noe mi.. i am lazy to blog both sides...(although i jus copy and paste onli.. nt much effort.. but still LAZY.. lolx) u will noe where to find mi.. hehe(^_^) (BTW.. its already stated in the first blog.. so guys.. plz READ?) hope tt my final problem can be quickly resolved.. now the problem is whether to continue this friendship or nt.. no matter wad harsh words i used.. the door will always be open to u to start another new friendship.. but if u dont.. then its ok... i will regret losing such a good friend like u... (i am sure u dont regret losing such a selfish person like mi).. well... i hav nt much close friends beside mi anymore.. ppl sae tt poly life changes tt... but i am nt exactly tt excited to start my poly life? but life got to go on... its still far better than staying at one spot.. even nomads move on to find a more abundant land.. so we shuld too... learn more knowledge so and to be a help to our society in the near future(nahZ... jus pulling ur leg... do u tink i am so serious???? esp the last part.zZz...anyway. i dont dig philosphy...) so far... i hav regreted all my decisions i had made in my life.. sometimes when i look back.. i feel so stupid... but wad to do.. this is me... there is nt i can do... tt's y i will like to turn back the hands of time if i actually could..(who dont?) hiaz.. well.. i still got a long way to lose tt stupid temper of mine.. and always tinking i am right attitude.. i noe some ppl out there will like to gloat abt my mistakes.. so be it... i m imperfect after all... (who's nt) hiaz.. stop here le.. better get to slp b4 my parents come hunting mi... and later tomolo cannot wake up = die le... hehe... take care my friends...
I'm Hugged On 1:10 PM

Well... these 2 daes hav turned for a teeny weeny better.. but my phone is spoiled.. so guys.. dont bother calling mi... cause u are going to hear "sorry, the number that u have jus dialled is currently unavailable. please try again later"... hiaz.. completely broke.. no money to get a new one... so meanwhile stuck at home.. trying to save and at the same time finding other means to scoop money out of nowhere.. like for example.. "eugene still owes mi 20 bucks.." hehe... chill man... jus jking.. relax.. hiaz.. hope life continues to turn for the better.. reali glad tt eveyone around mi is turning for the better... to mi.. life is like a piece of artwork... ppl around u add colours to ur life.. they had certainly done it... she went the colour fades away.. u muz try ur best to colour it back again.. so tt it can once again be admired by the thousands and millions...i jus cannot understand y a friendship is jus broken apart jus like tt... i dont see the meaning in it... does first impression reali counts to u... if u reali like ignoring mi so much.. so be it.. i am nt going to f***ing care.. i dont give a damn... so much abt all ur lies for being there for u when u need mi... where am i where u actually needed some1? where are u when i needed some1? are those i assume ur empty promises... if u are busy u are busy... if u are nt u are nt... please dont come up wif stupid excuses tt u need to attend to this and tt... i am nt tt sickening and irritating lor... if u reali dont wan to talk to mi onli.. u can jus come and tell mi tt u dont wan to talk to mi.. and block mi for all i care.. u can even delete mi as a contact... the gap is widen apart... ppl sae i do nt take the initiative to close the gap.. well.. honestly did i tried? i have given up.. anyway u got ur own grp of great friends and i got mine.. i have nv been so disappointed in my life b4... u can blame mi for being selfish.. but enuff is enuff... u can blame mi for all the reasons in the world.. i am nt going to care...
I'm Hugged On 7:51 AM

Well.. i am jus plain bored.. so decide to blog again... life simply sux... everything is turning upside down.. well... lets take yesterdae for a great example.. 4a.m in the morning..9/5/2005... woke up from a nitemare... dreamt tt i had lost everyone in my life... woke up with pespiration all over mi... cannot fall asleep anymore.. so i woke up and bathe... when i was bathing.. woke my father up.. get scolded... (take note.. how many times.. first time.. at 4.24a.m) for disturbing him from his sleep as he needs to go to work on tt dae.. its ok.. i bathe and silently go out and lie on the couch.. tinking of random events... until 6am.. where he is getting ready for his work.. scold mi again...(2nd time) for no cherishing time to slp.. then later complain to him tt my eyes pain and so on.. lack of slp and tired and so on..(since when i was complaining this to him?) its ok.. he went off to work.. i was still lying on the couch... relaxing.. until morning... 11am.. my mum went to buy breakfast for mi.. got scolded again...( 3rd time) she scold mi for spoon feeding mi everytime.. its ok.. after my breakfast... i go and on my computer.. trying to find something to do to beat this boredom.. then she comes in and scold mi again... (4th time) scodl mi for wasting electricity cause when later i will leave the computer on when i go and bathe... she is also afraid tt the computer will overheat and burn the whole house down... its ok.. i go and bathe.. then after tt go and see doctor.. due to tt painful "corn" on the sole of my feet...so we headed to the polyclinic.. once again... attempted to argue with my whether to take bus or to walk there..when we reach the bus stop then she suddenly said tt walking is nearer..(5th time) once again.. since we are already at the bus stop.. we take bus.. reach there at the polyclinic.. waited for my turn and registration = 1 hr.. meanwhile i went to the toilet... and wash my legs and hands.. i saw an old lady in the male toilet... then suddenly she grabbed my hand and speak to mi in dialect... i dont even understand wad she is trying to sae... but as i wan to proceed to the cubicle she dont wan to let mi go.. so later the cleaner came in and explain to her tt this is the male toilet.. and finally when i asked the cleaner wad she had said... he told mi tt she said tt i was trying to peep at girls in the toilet.. (6th time) scolded for entering the male toilet and wash my hands.. finally.. its my turn to see the doctor... i went in... and she said 3 sentence to mi... in chinese.. "hi, are u Tan zihao?", "wad happened to u", "ok.. its a "corn", please proceed to the counter to make payment" she said tt in chinese.. (for those who noe mi... my chinese sux...) so i asked her again.. where shuld i go? then once again she said tt "chim chim" sentence... well.. u already noe wad is going to happen rite? i got scolded by my mum again(7th time) for not clarifying where to go and wad to do... ok... tt 3 sentence jus caused mi $4.70? no medcine or anything... its still alrite.. proceeded to the counter to make an appointment for the removal of the "corn"... then the lady there told mi tt it has to be at geylang poly clinic.. on 1/9/2005...(excuse mi... if i had to wait till tt date.. i rather die?.. as the pain is already killing mi right now?) its ok... paid $4.70 and wasted 1 and a half hr of my time... so my mother asked mi whether i wan to see another doctor or not..(note: SHE ASKED ME) then i said "ok.. i wan to see another doctor..." SHE SCOLDED MI(8th time) for wasting her money... "do u tink i print money huh? everytime see doctor.."(err... excuse mi? u asked mi whether i wan to see another doctor and this is wad i get?" so we proceeded to find our family doctor at blk 123.. at least he is better, he said more things.. he taught mi how to remove the "corn" by using the corn plaster.. (hope this works.. i dont wan to go thru the "operation") .. well.. wad can i sae... the more he speaks, the more expensive it gets.. $23.00... give mi 4 types of medcine.. and go home.. soon.. my dad return from work... i was in the room, and he is talking to my mum.. the suspense is killing mi.. when am i going to get scolded again? nobody spoke to mi at all.. then suddenly.. my dad came in and scolded mi (9th time) "y tt time when the corn drop out... u muz put tt stupid "green" medcine.. "qing cao you" then everything will be solved.. then now go and see doctor and spend so much moeny.. u happy already lahz..." so after tt we all had dinner.. and he and mum go out for a walk and buy stuff... at last i can hav peace.. as i was alone at home.. then at abt 9pm.. they came back... then mum prepared warm water for me to soak my legs so tt i can stick the plaster after soaking in the warm water.. it is supposed to make the "corn" soft and easy to peel out.. THIS IS THE FUN PART----> when i was sitting down in the toilet.. soaking my feet.. my dad cannot find the torchlight as he needs to repair the telephone.. cause it's spoiled.. HE SCOLDS ME FOR MISPLACING HIS TORCHLIGHT?(10th time).. then meanwhile soaking my feet.. i told mum tt the water is too hot for me... HE SCOLDS ME AGAIN..." Y ARE U SUCH A WIMP... CANT EVEN TAKE A LITTLE HEAT IN THE WATER.."(11th time)...( excuse mi... i am soaking my feet in semi boiling water.. err.. do u jus put ur hands inside boiling water?) OMG... WE ARE GETTING TO THE EXCITING PART.. *SADISTIC LAUGHTER* i asked my mum how long muz i soak my feet in the water... MY DAD HEARD WRONGLY.. AND TOT TT I WAS TELLING HIM OFF TT HE CANNOT REPAIR THE PHONE...(12th time) "U SO "LI HAI" U COME AND REPAIR THE PHONE" (err.. i wasnt speaking to u.. and can u please stfu if u dont listen properly?) at last.. he gave up.. he failed to repair the phone... SO HE CAME AND VENT HIS ANGER ON MI..." Y U NV OFF THE COMPUTER WHEN U ARE WATCHING THE TV?" (err.. i was waiting for u to finish fixing the phone so tt i can once again use the computer... who will wan to use the computer without internet connection?) (13th time) HE SAES " I REALI REGRET GETTING U THIS NEW COMPUTER" FROM THEN... I WAS ON A CURFEW... i cannot use the com over 12am.. cannot use the TV over 12am... so wad can i do other than slp?... well... I MUZ REALI THANK GOD TT THIS IS A PERFECTLY NORMAL DAE TT I AM GOING THRU COMPARED TO THE OTHER DAES.. everynite when i close my eyes.. i can see u going to him... i reali wan u to be by my side always.. everytime when i wan to sleep... ITS THE PEACE TT DRIVES MI CRAZY..." when am i going to be scolded next?" i am nt trying to be a paranoid.. but jus put urself in my shoes for a moment... if u are like tt... getting scolded every moment.. will u wan to live? its jus like a feeling of waiting for death to come to u.. anyway i got nth in this world for mi to hold on anymore.. well... some ppl are jus complaining tt they cannot take the stress.. how bout mi? how bout ppl tt are far worst than mi? well... i reali hope tt u are happy with him... cause u are my onli hope for living in this wretched world....
I'm Hugged On 12:41 AM